It's Only Life

 Going out to work is out of the question as I work in clubs, theaters and pubs, which due to the current situation are not open for entertainment. I did try working the psychic phone lines again as a aid to dwindling finances but, although the first night was amazing, subsequent logins have left me feeling depleted. Sitting for two or three hours waiting for a phone to ring is definitely not for me. I really hate wasting precious time.  After suffering from deep depression in 1999, which resulted in a complete breakdown, and which was followed by another in 2003, as a now functioning depressive, I have to psyche myself up to engage with people.This enables me to get stuck in, and work for the amount of time I have prepared myself for. Which means that while I am constantly working I am fine, but if I have to sit and wait for something that may or may not happen it throws me off kilter. Another problem with working the telephone lines, is that among the genuine people who are ...

16th October 2018. Starting weight 13st7.8lbs.  D ay two on a healthier eating plan, also taking magnesium and turmeric. Wearing a magnetic back brace at the moment to help improve posture and ease my back pain and to take some of the pressure off my chest and stomach. Need to see how it goes. Got appointment with doctor Friday to see about stopping or changing medication. Going through a complete transformation physically, mentally and spiritually.   At the moment I am only eating 1 good sized meal per day. 2 slimfast shakes per day 2 x 400mg of Magnesium Citrate and 400mg of Turmeric. I am eating a normal meal just less of it. i am snacking on grapes when I feel the need for something to eat. I drink fresh orange juice, black coffee and water. I allow myself 2 snacks up to 150 calories each if I need them. Exercise is minimal at the moment until my breathing problems improve a little. 19th October. Now at day 5 and have lost 2.4lbs. Which, although not a lot, is positive...

Photo copyright to Brenda Diskin Sat here looking out at the garden, with ideas buzzing around my head. Need to practise using the pa equipment and find out the other stuff I need. They so lie when they say this stuff is portable. I love a bit of stress it helps you come up with the best plans. I can't say all is good with the world but while I have ideas then things will work out. My books are selling, slowly but selling. Had three lots of royalties so far, whoopee I can afford breakfast for two at Wetherspoon. Lol. Joking aside I am just grateful that someone appreciates my work and the huge amount of effort that goes into it. I am a very complex person but what you see is what you get, I say it like it is. People either love me or hate me there is no in between. It is no good trying to analyse me as even I don't know what I am about. I love my family, a few good friends and my furry babies and will do anything within my power for them. I enjoy what I do and am happy if i...